Monday, April 6, 2009
Book Reviews, Sort of...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Lightening Has Struck!
New Life
By
A. Grey
She’s an embattled soul, my Saida, standing in the center of the field, bad leg cocked, long neck stretched low, her head angled slightly to one side to ease the pull on her scarred left shoulder. Dixie stands at the trough, J.D. and Sierra under the pines. Among them all, Saida is the paradox, the inconstant thread. Plain brown in contrast to their appaloosa patterns and dusty donkey grey, her winter coat is shaggy, tattered where the CSU and 1808 brands mar the pattern of hair, missing where old wounds inhibit its growth entirely. Even her name is not her own, just one of many tags she’s borne. To my mother, she is Aisha, Swahili for ‘new life’. But to me she remains Saida. The unconquerable.
While the other horses were grazing in open fields, Saida was healing from wounds that will never be explained, alone and untreated. While little J.D. roamed with a herd of incorrigible donkey siblings, Saida stood with hundreds of other horses, crammed into dirt paddocks and narrow chutes. While Sierra and Dixie dallied at riding camps, Saida struggled to find her balance in a cattle rig traveling across the country.
When I first saw her she was wild and raw, almost unmanageable, carrying a foal that was not her own. Trust was a truth that she never quite subscribed to, but motherhood proved to be her natural calling. It was not a permanent state, however, and soon she was cast to the winds again, homeless and ill-suited to the expectations of a palfrey. But I saw a nobility in her misanthropic ways, a brilliance in her madness, a kindness in her manic attentiveness to the self appointed position of herdsman. And so here she stands in my field, safe now, but tattered and battered and not much to look at.
But come spring, the matte brown shag will slip from her lanky angles, revealing the crimson of blood bay, a coat of skin-close velveteen as soft as owl down. The summer sun will bleach her new hide to a copper coated ruby and her scars will loosen beneath its heated golden glare. She’ll run laps just to hear her own footfalls and the other horses will follow her even though they don’t understand why she finds such joy in the action. And she’ll never be explainable. Her sudden affection will never be something I can claim on a whim, her absurd fears will never have a basis I can grasp.
Come fall, her coat will drag low, its dull brown a catch-all for dirt and dead grass. The chill will set in and her scars will stiffen in its grip and the years will hang from her coatrack hips again. She’ll take to dozing in the sun, and move in a disjointed swagger, always stepping short with her bum left hind. But when spring shows up again, it will breath new life into Saida. The unconquerable. The inconstant. The noble and indomitable.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Rejection!
I understand that I can't get feedback, it's not reasonble for agents, editors, and publishers to give EVERYONE feedback. But after being rejected twenty odd times and counting, it's easy for me to point out the rejections that drove me up a wall and the ones that made me want to try harder. Agents don't want you to flatter them or list how many of your friends and family 'just loved' your manuscript. In the same vein, I don't want to hear how intriguing my story idea was if an agent/editor/publisher wasn't interested enough to actually READ the story. In short, I would remove the word 'but' from the english language.
I will continue to query of course, because the one true NEED I have in my life besides air, food and water, is to wrote and the thing I want most is to write as a professional. And who knows, eventually maybe someone will actually read my manuscript and be able to articulate WHY they did or did not like it or parts of it and I'll be able to work on the problems. And maybe some agent/editor/publisher will find my query interesting enough to bother with learning more about the manuscript. Until that happens, I will continue to write. Or maybe I'll stage a near disaster in which I will save countless lives, since that seems to create instant writers who are sought after for book deals. That last being gotten out of my system, let me make it very clear that I think 'Sully' Sullenberger is a true hero of the highest order and deserves everything he's now receiving. I just wish that those of this without the term 'hero' in our resume had better odds of such success...